Confession

Sometimes I imagine I'm driving past my future husband. I imagine that he sees me and thinks hmmm she's pretty cute. So whenever I drive I'll act like I'm cooler than I actually am! I'll sit a little taller, or slouch a little more just so I don't look prissy. I crack myself up.

Sick of it...

I am presently sick of these things:
- Working on Sundays
- Missing out on the College Group
- Having to do everyone else's job while at work
- Being friendzoned
- Bad coffee
- Personal procrastination
- Fox News
- How easily my room can get messy
- How fast my summer disappeared
- Having to keep working on these things that don't have deadlines (or deadlines that are coming up way too quickly)

Goda Golfers

I got to play golf with my Dad and sister, actually it was more like I laughed with them. I can't ever take a round with my dad seriously! He cracks me up especially when he plays with Mag because he gets on her. Actually he funniest when he's playing bad because he does and says funny stuff. Until I fell apart and my stomach was aching. I played awfully but I still beat both of them courtesy of a few mulligans. It's funny how I can still beat them after only playing 18 twice this summer & 9 holes about 5 times. But I don't know how I feel about taking the PAT this fall. I know I already have a caddie, but I don't think I'm ready... nor will I ever be.
Liep,
Michelle

Scary Week

Let me just run down the past week that has run me down.
Monday: Little girl gets hit in the head and we have to call the ambulance.
Tuesday: My "day off" and I have to take Maddy to the vet to find out she had a fever because of the gash she had taken out of her face after fighting a raccoon. She ended up having to wear the cone of shame and stay inside that night so she didn't get over heated. I had to sleep with the drowsy doggy downstairs. As cute as she is, she wore me out. I was so nervous because I was afraid that she would end up getting more sick or not heal. I just didn't want her to get any worse. I don't know how I'm gonna handle having a kid.
Wednesday: I found out that Haris Suleman's plane crashed and they found his body in the Pacific Ocean and they still haven't found Babar (his father). He was going to be the youngest person to fly around the world, in the shortest amount of time. The worst part is, he was 17 hours away from getting home. He was 17, 17 hours away from home. Tragic. Yusuf was the one to tell me, while I was at work. I had a dream that I watched someone die while I was working and I couldn't keep working because of how hard I was crying and how distraught I was. Thankfully that did not happen, but I did tear up a little and cry on the way home.
Thursday: I was finally able to go on vacation! I went with Mom, Mag, Kate, and & Shelly to Holiday World. It had been an incredibly long time since I had gone but I'm glad I did. We were able to go on some of the new rides and even meet some people from Tennessee.  But it was determined that I am an old woman. After I was sore from roller coasters, got tired after lunch, & to top it off the Voyage killed me. I drooled and couldn't handle how bad my head hurt from the rattling the coaster gave me.
Friday: I made it all the way out to work to find out they didn't need me. But my supervisor was very caring and recognized how taxed I was from the week and offered his support. I have had a very tough time reading schedules apparently and only worked one hour today. Grrr.
So that's that. It's almost over though! Thanks goodness!
Liep - Michelle

Horrifying Day

Today I learned what it feels like to be responsible for someone's child when they get seriously injured and I never wanna feel that way again. Today one of our junior golfer was hit in the head with a golf club. I'm not saying it was my fault but it might as well have been. I really wish I had been able to stop it or had made a change to the situation. Anything. Made her hit her ball first. Made him go grab another club. Made her grab another club, or even just back up. I know it's not entirely my fault, but I do blame myself to some extent. But fortunately, as soon as she was hit she was able to walk and I picked her up and carried her to another mother with a golf cart. I felt something warm on my ear and pulled her away and found out she was bleeding, that was the one thing that freaked me out. The realization that this was real and she could pass out in my arms. So I said, Oh my god blood. The member mom kinda took over after I set her on the cart, she was slightly more calm than I was after putting a towel on her wound. She drove her up and I was already on the radio telling James to get the emergency contacts and be ready to call 911. She took her up to the golf shop and James took care of her. I had to hold it together while they took care her. I had the kid that hit her and his sister complaining about wanting water or their golf ball or their personal golf clubs and it took everything in me not to say do you not realize you nearly killed a little girl?! But of course they had no idea, they didn't know any better and their mom didn't want them to either. I found out later that her mom had been down at the pool and right before the ambulance showed up the little girl nearly had a seizure or passed out, and the mom started crying out oh my god my little baby. James nearly broke down right there. I can't blame him. I was about to start crying about five times during the gap between the hit and the finding out she was ok in the ambulance. I finally got the chance to after James returned and asked me if I was ok. I told him I needed to cry while I was scraping some of her blood off of my ear and hand. That got me. Right there. Her blood was on my hand, and I was less than 50 yards from where it happened. And I told him I needed to cry. So I did. He hugged me and I cried and told him I blamed myself and he repeated it wasn't my fault, we prayed about it. I had to tell some other people what had happened and it was hard everytime not to blame myself. But I have realized that it's not my fault. But now I will do everything in my power to never let it happen again. Also, when I normally do blame a coworker for certain difficulties in the job... this time I was glad he screwed up once this morning because if I had made him do something then he would've been there when it happened and wouldn't have handled it correctly. SO praise the Lord James and I were there and took care of the situation. I hate that it happened. And I never want it to happen again. Trusting God to forgive me for this accident will but hard but it is necessary because  I have a whole week of junior golf ahead of me, so look out juniors I will be the safety Nazi this week!

Back in KY!

It's been fun to be back in Kentucky and reunited with my Alpha Gamma Delta sisters! It's been awesome seeing them again. We're all here to get prepped and ready for this year's fall recruitment. I know my class is so excited to change everything and bring in an awesome pledge class. We really want to make Alpha Gam Gamma O so much better but it's hard to when the people that are in it are not particularly motivated... But on a different note, when I first joined a sorority I had no idea that I would be able to this close to this many women just because of three letters. But it's so cool when you are able to come together to help each other be the best they can be just so you can strive together to win awards and bring change to certain causes. I love our awesome advisors and wish all of our members would realize how hard they work and what they give to the chapter. Shanna is one of the most incredible women I know. I have so much respect for her because even though despite her size her heart is huge and her ideas and imagination is out of this world. Anyway, I just love all of these women and all of the things we stand for.  I can't wait to be a leader in this chapter for the rest of my life. I even wanna be an advisor after I graduate also a leadership consultant! 

Liep, Michelle

NOT THE BEV CART GIRL

I don't consider myself to be an unreasonable kind of feminist. I find the right for women to be paid the same as men, I expect women to be able to possess the same jobs in all fields, especially politics. Also, I expect women that possess leadership roles to be respected as leaders and should be called by their well-earned prestigious title. But something the other day really sent me over the edge. I have had members ask me if I would be driving the beverage cart. At first I was flattered, because generally the women that drive them are considered to be young and very attractive. But then I started thinking... is that all that men assume. If a female is on a golf course then she must be on the bev cart or some kind of freak of nature. She must be a hot, gorgeous athlete and she only golfs if her boyfriend does. Also when ever someone calls into the golf shop and hears a female's voice then they automatically assume they have called the wrong number. NO, believe it or not, a woman can be working in a golf shop. Also a woman can be on the course, in a cart and not be delivering beers. I don't know why this hasn't bothered me before now. I knew I was entering a business that invented the phrase the "men's club." I mean you know how many people have told me that golf stands for "Gentlemen Only Ladies Forbidden." I knew I was entering the gentlemen's club but it is frustrating when people don't realize that you could be overseeing the golf course they chunk divots out of someday. Oh well, I hoe to be one of those women to change the face of golf. As much as I would love to be the trophy wife for a professional golfer (Adam Scott ;) I would much rather be the name that people think of when they think of the PGA. I don't know what it will take to become that. Whether that means becoming a commentator, a well-known teaching professional or even the first female president of the PGA of America, I'm more than willing to do it and would love to be known to be the first to do it. That's all. Rant's over.

Liep, Michelle

TOO MUCH!

I don't know where to begin... but I've had a lot going on. I have been working A TON! I was also able to attend the Alpha Gamma Delta Convention at the JW Marriott this past weekend. I learned so much and met so many incredible people. I'm super duper tired and want to write so much but don't have time to. Well I've cried twice in the shower over being overwhelmed, so there's admitting that. I guess what's so frustrating is that I'm one of the hardest working people and now they want me to continue working. UGH! I am so thankful for this opportunity to learn and grow in the profession, but I get tired of working, but realize this is an opportunity to share the gospel at work with my continuous joy and integrity to continue working. Well, now it's time to get to bed so I can wake up and take on tomorrow.

LIEP, Michelle

Summer Job

Hey folks!
Just wanted to share what I've been up to this summer! I've been interning for my co-op at the Woodland Country Club of Carmel. I've been able to serve as a "bag girl" for a majority of my time here. But I've also been able to serve in the golf shop and help with junior golf clinics which have been super fun! It's been quite a journey but I'm enjoying it and all the cool opportunities that are coming out of it!

Back to the Blog

Hey guys! Which is more or less, no one. But that's fine, because I've decided to start this blog because I want to post my thoughts, daily devotions, outfits, and doubt too many people will care beside me:) But I missed posting things to the internet, I find it easier to type it out rather than hunt down my notebook and write down my thoughts. I am a returning blogger, but my original blog was... well... blah. Hate to admit it but it was awful. So here's round two! Hoping to be bigger, badder, and better than ever! So thank you and I hope you enjoy... it's kinda funny talking to yourself.
-Michelle